I Will Wait…

So it seemed that it was cool for everyone to be in a relationship
But me
So I took matters into my own hands
And ended up with him
Him who displayed the characteristics
Of a cheater, a liar, an abuser and a thief
So why was I surprised when he broke into my heart
I called 911 but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting
Cos it was me who let him in, claiming, “We were just friends”
It was already decided for me from the first day
That even if he wasn’t, I was gonna make him the one
You know; I was tired of being alone
And I simply made up my mind that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride
Cos I was always a bride but I was never the bride
A virgin in the physical but mentally just a grown woman on the cord and he was tired of the weight
So I was gonna make him the one
He had a form of Godliness but, not much
But hey, hey, I can change him
So I will take him how many cloths, enough!
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter not knowing the value of its use to me
Arteries so clogged with my will and block his will from flowing through me
So I take Christ and his blood pours and attack that, that blood
Through my ignorance he saw, so through my stardom he saw that Christ open my chest and transplant psalm 51:10
I fully comprehend how much I need to wait on you
See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t him from the beginning
Because in the beginning was the word
And he didn’t even shine like your son

Out of the abundance of the heart
The mouth speaks
And all he could whisper were sweet empty nothing
Which mean nothing
He couldn’t even pray when I needed him to
Asking him to fast would be absurd
Forget about being cleansed and washed by the water through the word

But I know you
You are already praying
Even though you haven’t met me
Let me assure you
I will wait for you!

I will no longer date, socialize or communicate
With carbon copies of you
To appease my boredom or to quench my thirsty for attention
And short lived compliment
Of she’s sort of kind of
You know he’s sort of kind of right
But sort of kind of wrong
His first name Luke, his last name Warm

I won’t settle for false companionship
Attempting to find warmth on the embrace of his arms
Because I just want to be held
All I gotta do is say no!
No more all those sections of almost coming close
Passing winks and buying drinks
Amma amma amma flirt
Who flirt with the ideology of
Can you just tell me how much
I can get away with and still be saved
No more
I will stay in my bed alone
And write poems about how
I will wait for you

He won’t even come close
Our fingers won’t even interlock
We won’t even exchange breath
Cos I have thoughts that I have saved
Thoughts that only the Father equips you to open

I will no longer get ranted down from so-called friends and family talks
About the concern for my biological clock
When I serve the author of time
Who is not subject to time, but I’m subject to him
He has the ability to stop, pause,
Fast forward or rewind at any given time

If we could role-play, you could be
Abraham
And I will be Sarah
Oh, you could be Isaac
And I Rebekah- a servant’s answered prayer
I am bone of my bone
Flesh of your flesh
Made up of your rib Adam
And once we meet, like electrons
I will be bond to your nucleus
Completely indivisible atoms
We even speak the same maths
One plus one plus one equals three
But really equals one if you add them

We were all created in His image
But you have the ability to project
Reflect and even detect the son
If I were to explain what you look like
You’d have to look like the star
A son of the sun
I’d gain energy simply from the light you shine on me
I would need you in order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your Revelation
But then again, from Genesis
I will wait for you

And I will know you because when you speak
I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom
Your ability to lead, will remind me of Moses
Your faith will remind me of Abraham
Your confidence in God’s word will remind me of Daniel
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul
Your heart for God will remind me of David
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph
And your ability to bend on your own will
Will remind me of the disciples
But your ability to love selflessly and
Unconditionally
Will remind me of Christ

But I won’t need to identify you by any
Special math-use
Or any special mark
Cos His word will be tattered all over your heart
And you will know me and you’ll find me
Where the boldness of Esther meets
The warm-closeness of Ruth
Where the hospitality of Lydiah
Is in line with the submission of Mary
Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hannah
I will be the on drenched in Proverbs 31
Waiting for you!

But to my Father- my Father who has known me
Before I was birthed to this earth
Only if you see fit
I desire your will above mine
So even if you call me to a life of
Singleness
My heart is content with you
The one who has seen
You are the greatest love story ever told
The greatest love ever known
You’re forever my judge
And I’m forever your witness
And I pray I’m forever found in the mission
About my Father’s business
And I will always be yours
And I will always wait for you Lord
More than the watchmen wait for the morning
More than the watchmen wait for the morning

I will wait!

Spoken word poetry by Janette K

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PS: A friend showed me this and it just perfectly described what I had been thinking of writing, I hope it blesses you!