“Good Good Father.” By Chris Tomlin is the summary of 2018 for me.
The year 2018 has indeed being a year like no other for me. I cannot totally put to words everything that happened or that I have been through in the year but in all I know this… I am still on the journey. The year for me can be likened to Death, Burial and Resurrection which is the import of the Baptism by immersion exercise every believer undergoes to depict our newness of life in Christ Jesus.
The Death cycle started prior to 2018, as a matter of fact, as 2017 was winding up I was so expectant of the New Year so I could start on a fresh slate. Here was what happened; I had made concluded arrangements to travel for my masters outside the country which necessitated my resignation at my place of employment at the time. I was so excited that finally I’ll be leaving my beloved country with all the troubles and uncertainties that comes with being a Nigerian resident in Nigeria. Also, one major thing that happened that year was the break-up between my fiancée and I. The break-up was very devastating for me as the Lady whom I felt was to be the mother of my unborn children suddenly said she was not interested in the relationship anymore. The weight of her departure was felt much when my travel plans was scuttled by the travelling agents whom I thought was doing everything to make it possible not knowing he actually was doing the opposite.
My burial came when it was obvious that the traveling would not come to fruition anymore and the reality that I was now jobless stared me in the face. This season was not palatable for me at all, I had to stay at home for months, watch my siblings go to work and return while I’ll just be at home. This made me feel very bad, dejected and depressed too but I will always try to keep myself engaged by finding something to help with at home; picking up my nephews from school and whatever might be required of me. I did this so as not to be burden but to bring something to the table at home even if I wasn’t working at the moment.
Whoa this is the sweetest part of everything all. The Resurrection happened as God came through and showed that He is God all by Himself. Exactly one year and some days after I resigned from my former workplace, I got a better employment with better working conditions and overall package.
I share this to encourage and strengthen someone’s faith out there. God is still in the business of doing miracles and He never forgets His own. He owns everything and all the riches of the whole Earth are His, your challenges or seeming trials are minute.
All through this season was I depressed? Yes
Did morbid or suicidal thoughts stray through my mind/thoughts? Yes
However, herein was my consolation and hold at the time, I was more than whatever I was going through at that time in my life and I was created for more and I have a glorious destiny which will be fulfilled regardless. Christ in me still remained my Hope of Glory and I was not ready to let go of that Hope.
2019 My Year of God’s Bountiful Blessings is the big thing I’m looking forward to with faith, hope and anticipation as I declare my gratitude to Him alone for being a Good Good Father to me and all that is mine.
Thank you Adepero Ajayi for affording me this opportunity. Here’s wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and God’s Bountiful Blessings in the New Year.
Season’s Greetings from Perry’s Tots.🤶🎄
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