Hello Perry’s Tots fam!!! Happy new month, I am so excited because the remaining days of this year are loaded. I trust God to do something remarkable in the lives of you my readers. I want God to give you testimonies that would make the ears of everyone who hear it to tingle and wonder if it is real. You know those types of testimonies that would look like a lie. Yes! This year’s 31Days 31Voices should be filled with remarkable testimonies that would draw men to Christ. Amen
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I have noticed how lately God has being working on the different aspects of my life where I didn’t even know needed cleansing and healing. It is beautiful to give God full access to one’s life and not just give Him specific segments. Surrender is beautiful. It was initially scary but the results I have experienced are mind-blowing.
The last segment God cleansed me from where words that have been spoken to me that was contrary to His plans and promises for me. I did not even realize how these things had affected me, maybe I did but I did not know I could have new experiences that would totally counter the bad ones.
In medical school, so much verbal abuse was done. You literally are told you are not good enough every single day, you don’t know anything etc. Although we develop thick skin on the long run, I think verbal abuse is still abuse. I went through med school never seeing myself practice medicine. I hated clinical medicine. The only year I thrived in medical school was in my fifth year, Community health, there was little or no verbal abuse. I flourished that year; had my best grades, published and presented my dissertation at a conference. I enjoyed the courses.
Sadly, even after medical school I had fears that I was not good enough, I did not have enough confidence, and I had low self-esteem in this regard. I always felt others were better than I was. I felt I did not know anything. I had resits. I should probably have identified earlier that it was the words that got to me, because I read less during my resits and I got better grades.
I used to say National Youth Service Corp (NYSC) would be my last attempt at clinical practice, it was FEAR! Fear of not being good enough. I felt I was not capable so instead of hurting people I would rather hang my coat.
Help me take two second break to thank God for being so strategic with all the events of my life and working everything out for my good!
I am currently serving in a federal hospital, infact, before I was posted; I was hoping to be posted anywhere else but a hospital. I am grateful God did not give me what I wanted but what I needed. I really did not mind teaching, it was that bad.
I have being working in the emergency room for about two months and I never knew I could be this alive and I am enjoying it. I love it! Someone said to me, “You’re the only corper I know enjoying service.” My God is healing me and restoring the years for me. I am living in the now and not getting anxious about my tomorrow. God is my sugar daddy and He gets to do all the heavy lifting, mine is to listen for instructions and follow, then deliver excellently on all assignment. It is a division of labor kind of thing.
My creative aspects had always made up for how I felt in my medical career. I felt more confident with my writing than being a doctor. Now, I am independent, confident and thriving in my clinical practice. I know I am good enough and more than enough. I know my hands are healing hands, whomever I touch is healed. I’m God’s delegate in the hospital bringing healing and succor to everyone I meet. I bring healing to their spirit, soul and body. I am an embodiment of grace and healing power flowing into the atmosphere.
I am grateful God went to dig out my buried past to bring total restoration to me and to give me a new lease of life in this regard. I see how God is building me to wholeness in every aspect of my life, He is going to the root to pull and destroy every mindset contrary to His plans and purpose for my life. We need to be whole to bring healing to others, if not; our experiences will stand as a veil over God’s perspective for situations we go through.
We use God’s mighty weapons, not worldly weapons, to knock down the strongholds of human reasoning and to destroy false arguments. II Corinthians 10:4 NLT
I do not know what hidden issues you have or are going through but I encourage you to give it to Jesus to help you with it. His yoke is light, give Him your burden to carry.
“Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 NLT
If you know me well, you know I don’t joke with words because they are powerful. I am also not about to start joking with words. If you don’t have anything true, honorable, right, pure, lovely or admirable to say please keep shut. Let your words be few to build up rather than pull down. It is not a joke. Your words have great impact. Be people of few words that transform lives.
I wish you God’s rest for the remaining months of this year!